>>8248143I want to write this damn book if anything! All i did up to this point was centred around this one thing(that i don't even do). If i go now to just work i know that i will just settle for this if its comfy enough...
But i won't start writing it because i think that i have great concepts and skills to do it. Doesn't make sense? I know. Because if its just a lie i will just break down in realization that after primary school i wasted time for nothing.
I worked as intern for 1 month in some office but deep down i felt that its not for me. That i need to do something unusual. So i left. And did nothing of this sort.
>>8248174It's too comfy in home. I need someone to force change by i will not ask parents or anyone to do it. I'm subconsciously waiting for unspecified deadline that will force me to take action.
Wow i sound like a such a fucking bitch....
