NT: Crying

This is my thread and I'll cry my feelings out for some attention and discussion. Feel free for doing the same. I'm willing for help with your problems as well.

Here we go:
>transgender mtf
>born in a shithole
>$250 wage
>can't properly transition because no money
>government pays for SRS but don't pays for aesthetic procedures, like facial feminization and breasts
>24yo already
>thinking that it's an impossible thing to do because of age and lack of money
I'm considering moving into another country that pays well for regular jobs, unlike here, but I'm fucking afraid of being all alone on the other side of the world. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Probably I won't look like a woman if I transition with the government program and'll look like an aberration.

What would you do in my place, /bant/ers?