>>8415028>when you got off your treatment that made you turn into a zombieAh fuck man that was a couple of gf's ago. Like 2013ish. I was still with my loli gf at that time so inbetween 2013 and 2014.
>how long did it take you to come right A couple of weeks after going cold turkey. The sertraline was the hardest to get right from as I couldn't get boners for like 4 months after and if I did I could never finish.
>live your own life again and be comfortable with itNigga I'm not comfortable with the fact I exist at all. It seems wrong like I'm not meant to be here and if I am I should be killing someone or building something to kill someone.
I'll try my best to answer this. When I came out I wasn't sure what I was, what happened to me and who I was really. I'd just lost a month without any recollections of what I was before that or what I was trying to be. I'd just sit around smoking cigarettes and trying to get my marbles back. After about 4 months I was back to living my old life but I felt like I'd lost part of me. Like something inside me died. I'd always chalked it up to my concept of childhood dying. I'd become a man and done all the shit to become one. Now here I was broken inside from the things I'd done and when I tried to use a doctor to fix me I fucked myself up even more.
I can't really say I lived the same after that. I'd lost whatever it was that made me "normal". Even my friends say I'm not the same anymore after that. Not that I was myself at the time anyway but it just made it worse.
