bear with me it's kinda long
>be me
>depressed for a while
>meet this girl, 10/10 body, understand me to a level i have never experienced before
>it's actually scary but somewhat cool
>she's got a bf
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>we keep talking anyway, end up flirting
>she comes over to my house a week later
by this time i sort of had the feeling that something was about to happen but i also was ready to let her sleep in another room if she was uncomfortable
>we have probably the best evening i have shared with a girl before
>end up making out
by this time she has not said anything to her bf
>morning comes
>she stays another night even though she wasn't planning on doing so
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>basically i'm falling in love at this point
>she leaves the next morning
>both kinda sad but we promise we're gonna see each other
now is probably the good time to bring up the fact that i sort of instigated that i wasn't looking for anything really serious because i found the "couple cage" to be too restrictive, which we agreed on and that might explain why she cheated on her bf with me. at the time i didn't care
>we spend weeks separated by life events, hollidays and such
>a few plans of meeting up again have failed
>i'm getting tired of it honnestly but can't forget the feeling of being understood and loved for who i am for what feels like the first time in my life
>can't forget her body
>can't forget the fact that i was falling in love with this girl before we got separated
>she calls me tonight to have some news
>she tells me she had a guy over at her appartment
>i'm pretty sure they fucked but she doesn't seem to think that it's a big deal
and that's where i am right now. i feel like the emotional bf and i fucking hate it. it's not like we have said we were a couple so she technically hasn't cheated on anyone but i feel cheated on (ironic huh). so should i ghost her?should i let it pass? i surely fucking deserve this desu but damn it hurts...