i really cried today for the first time in years. all that because i confessed to someone i had a crush on the internet, and telling her i couldnt proceed to talk with her because of my insecurities and anxiety of what she now thinks of me. her response was the thing that made me cry. after I wrote a text how i thank her for everything and i wish her the best of luck in achieving her goals and that she will be never forgotten she responded with "that made me cry, thanks" "take care of yourself, for me"

i feel weak, and retarded and sad that i myself fucked it up with the coolest person i've met in a long time. but i feel reliefed to some degree. I jut hope that the relief will overshadow the huge loss i made today.