>>851244I just have a routine i follow. I was raised by strong father and grandfathers, they all were strong believers in "warrior men archetype", which is understandable since grandfathers and grandgrandfathers all fought in war\were affected by it. So since childhood i strongly believed that there would be a "happening" in my lifetime and enemies i would have to face, so since childhood i was emerged in training, sambo, kickboxing, swimming, calistenicks, kettlebells, heavy lifting once i got older, combat sambo, i was pretty good in it, achieving master rank in those were pretty easy, but with age i started to realise that i dont really like violence, i never really fought anyone outside the ring or mat, except couple of gopniks i layed out cold with pretty much one swing. Now i just train part time, watch cute joy-filled anime, reading books, playing card games and train a lot, i cant stop training because i kinda used to it through years, cant sleep if i didnt train. At the back of my heart i still kinda wait for a happening, but i wont participate in it, ill just get away from it. I always imagined myself as a ruthless and mercyless warrior, but i cry when i accidentally stumble on pics or webms with suffering animals, i dont think i can hurt, let alone kill someone.
