>>8618537You know, I can not imagine it. I am trying, but I can not even grasp the concept of that sort of peace. I am ashamed to admit that I am often an angry man, and my anger stems from wanting. Many men, all far better than I, have tried to teach me their ways, but I have yet to comprehend. They gave me awards, and clapped for me as I scored in the top 1% and I listened and worked harder, wanting more. Now, in the later half of my twenties, it is begging to dawn on me that I should have listened to what people were telling me more than just trying harder. Study more, sleep less, leave others behind you, they will only slow you down has left me rich, but spiritually shallow.
It feels bad to be fucking retarded, but I think people are still trying to teach me, and maybe I can learn.
