>>8637788Congrats welcome to the Autism club.
OP just accept the tribe fate has cast you and love what ever it is you want as much as you want.
Happiness should not be a objective target but a feeling of acceptance of your subjective condtion.
Do your best but don't set unreasonable targets like fitting in or having X trait set you astray from what happiness really is about.
Bask in it OP, love your messed up nature and love your tribe.
We are all here sharing similar stories and experiences, what an honor to do so.