>>8688860Same desu(sort of), its not like my life is that terrible or anything it's just so incredibly boring. Wake up -> go to work -> come home and do whatever -> sleep.
I've gone through so many different hobbies but i haven't been able to stay interested in any of them i've recently started swimming again because i loved doing that as a kid but im starting to lose interest already its only been 2 months.
At this point im also not sure if i'm even capable of feeling love romantically, as far is can remember i've never even had a crush on someone as a kid either, the longest relationship i've ever had barely lasted a month, i can still enjoy sex but purely on a physical level because of this problem.
It all just feels so empty and meaningless i guess im depressed even though i dont feel like im depressed.
recently i've been thinking of getting into drugs to "reset" my brain or alter it or whatever but i know fuck all about that stuff and if such a thing is even possible, the most i have done is smoke some weed or maybe i should just move to a different country entirely and try to start fresh or something, idk man im just so bored and lonely.
I guess i just need some time to think and figure wtf im gonna about all this, endlessly drowing myself in self pity isnt really my style either and im to much of a pussy to actually neck myself, if only i could just go to sleep and never wake up again that would be perfect.
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