should i just kill myself?

thousands in debt and unsure if i should keep trying to be a programmer (im not bad compared to my peers who are undoubtably also bad), and i wonder if im far more interested in nutrition and the way chemicals interact w the body.

i dont want to spend eternity doing something i hate. as of now the only things interesting that i can make a career out of would be some kind of ctf or pentester or maybe a biological scientist learning about the chemical reactions in our bodies etc

idk, im just fucking depressed rn....