>>8968503Well I wouldn't say it was just the LSD. I did enough stimulant abuse to give a person delusional and paranoid thoughts
I started off on drugs when I was 13 years old, with a fairly early and fairly shit version of that BK2CB stuff I was talking about earlier. It wasn't euphoric, or at all similar to MDMA. It was entirely psychedelic. Was given a dose that I was told would last 6 hours, lasted 26
That was my first high. Didn't really slow down from there, did LSD more times than you've got digits on your hands from the age of 14 to 15, and the last time I did it was right after a two week amphetamine binge that left me hearing the wind whispering on nights out. Oh yeah all the while smoking about a quarter to a full gram of weed a day
Everything was kind of tearing around the edges already, and we did the biggest dose of LSD we'd done so far, don't remember how much it was but I don't think it really mattered either. It took all the tears around the edges of my experience, and shredded the remains.
I'm not sure how best to explain the psychosis though. The auditory hallucinations stopped after I stopped doing stimulants and psychedelics. But the tiny visual hiccups around the edges got worse. The real worst part about it was the state of me as a person. I kind of split into a few different things(?)
It was like instead of just doing, and being; there was a part of me that did, and there was a part of me that watched. And then there was another than watched the part of me that watched me. Each one doubting themselves in their observations and actions.
I felt as if I was in front of a football stadium filled with people at all times, even when I was alone. The anxiety you feel when you misspeak in front of the class when you're 14 years old and the girl you like is there, was how I felt at all times even when I was alone. Especially with other people.
Character limit reached, sorry for all this text. Thanks for giving my thoughts a place to stay.
