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I've just had the weirdest yank I've ever experienced.
>be me 3 years ago
>date this girl for about 9 months
>she's sweet, smart, extroverted, etc
>best girlfriend I've had thus far
>her parents hate me
>her parents claim that I'm a bad influence on their daughter
>in reality, she just hates her parents' overbearing rules, but that's besides the point
>her parents think that I'm the reason why she hasn't been obeying them
>her parents force us to break up
>her parents even file a protective order on me
>areyoufuckingkiddingme.jpg
>don't want to break up with her, but we're both underage, so I have to listen to her perents' wishes
>beaides, I don't wanna do time
>very bad and traumatizing break up
>don't even get to tell her goodbye due to potential protective order being placed on me
>her parents tell her nothing about the protective order, convincing her that I just never wanted to see her again
>she grows to resent me
>fast forward 2 years
>haven't seen her since the breakup
>every relationship succeeding my relationship with her feels inadequate
>decide to be single for a bit
>no relationships, no hookups
>fast forward 1 more year
>spent entire year working on myself
>improved self-esteem and confidence, yet no desire to seek out a relationship
>been fappin
>pornhub, xnxx, etc is getting boring
>decide to try something
>find ex's facebook account
>instant erection
>vigorous masturbation ensues
>finish, but afterglow feels weird
>is...is this guilt?
>why do I feel so shameful?
>did I deserve this intense feeling of disgust?
>stomach is in knots
>literally sick now
>mfw
>be me 3 years ago
>date this girl for about 9 months
>she's sweet, smart, extroverted, etc
>best girlfriend I've had thus far
>her parents hate me
>her parents claim that I'm a bad influence on their daughter
>in reality, she just hates her parents' overbearing rules, but that's besides the point
>her parents think that I'm the reason why she hasn't been obeying them
>her parents force us to break up
>her parents even file a protective order on me
>areyoufuckingkiddingme.jpg
>don't want to break up with her, but we're both underage, so I have to listen to her perents' wishes
>beaides, I don't wanna do time
>very bad and traumatizing break up
>don't even get to tell her goodbye due to potential protective order being placed on me
>her parents tell her nothing about the protective order, convincing her that I just never wanted to see her again
>she grows to resent me
>fast forward 2 years
>haven't seen her since the breakup
>every relationship succeeding my relationship with her feels inadequate
>decide to be single for a bit
>no relationships, no hookups
>fast forward 1 more year
>spent entire year working on myself
>improved self-esteem and confidence, yet no desire to seek out a relationship
>been fappin
>pornhub, xnxx, etc is getting boring
>decide to try something
>find ex's facebook account
>instant erection
>vigorous masturbation ensues
>finish, but afterglow feels weird
>is...is this guilt?
>why do I feel so shameful?
>did I deserve this intense feeling of disgust?
>stomach is in knots
>literally sick now
>mfw
