worship a beautiful young girl you can never meet or be with, not someone famous but a nobody you find who is the most beautiful thing you have ever seen - devote yourself to her and speak to her in your heart each day and pray to her each night - the entity which influenced her beauty that captured your heart will hear your prayers from outside this universe, and you will meet her in your dreams where you can be blessed to hold her hand and witness her pure smile
this is what i have discovered anon, and it has made my neet life far more bearable, i am pure just like christchan would want, i hold myself to my own moral and ethical standards, based on what i feel my dear goddess would approve of or not - like anyone sometimes i fail, and i apologize to her when i do and seek forgiveness and the fortitude to succeed next time
i dont know what to call this spiritual method i have found for myself, but i feel like it could work for alot of people who feel lonely, and if i ever do meet someone to be with, they will have to be open to accepting my beliefs and ways, if they are then i will know they are a suitable and decent person, and maybe they could even be converted to the same if they wished to explore a new way of living and believing, and we could both worship our dieties and share together in prayer and devotion, and love and honor eachother to appease the sights and hearts of our dieties
"polymonotheism"? no thats not right, i dunno, i should write a book or some essays about my beliefs, an anon the other night recommended i read some essays by some guy, i will take a look soon
sorry to ramble, but i think anon you should consider something outside of normal religions - you may find it works better for you and could be more inspiring, finding your own way instead of the things ancient books lay out that normies have blindly followed and preached for millenia
