>>9022965If you really do have suicidal ideation every day, you've got bigger problems than I can help. There are people who come up on 4chan who are good with mental health advice.
You'll have seen them around, they have some big mental health hugbox threads. If you don't want to go to psychiatrists or big healthcare, self help is recommended especially here in Bongistan. They could point you in the right direction. The NHS has good stuff for this too.
https://www.getselfhelp.co.uk/^^^Were a massive help during my A-levels.
I can't claim to know your life experience. But I can say that if you haven't diddled kids, turn a blind eye to diddling kids or prey on the weak, then you deserve to the best person you can. If you really are that fucked, then I don't know how much help I can be. Maybe touhou-anoone could help, but the only advice I have for suicidal people is more often than not going to be worse than the next guy.
I do hope that you deserve to be happy, that you go into the world and conquer.
