I often find myself in limbo because I am apparently not meant to be and cannot function like a normal Human being would. I fear failure but I do not feel the urge to be productive, I want to be alone but I hate being lonely, I feel hungry yet I cannot bring myself to eat. So I just stare. Sometimes I do get out of my way and e.g. try to get friends, but after befriending them I start to distance myself and eventually ghost them instead of growing the friendship. I despise hurting people, but I constantly do. I guess I'm just like a child, but without the careless attitude and lack of self-awareness. Do I pass the r/banter citizenship exam?