I finished bartending training some time ago I and got certified. Problem is, I have social anxiety and depression and a slew of other personality disorders. I have a hard time memorizing shit and using my hands and interacting with people. I did fine on the written exam but I couldn't memorize a drink recipe to save my life. My teacher passed me but she basically said, "If you're not getting it after a month..."

I haven't had a job in a while and because of my living situation, I can only earn about $1200 a month otherwise I have to move. I'm nervous about looking for work and fucking up and having to go through it all and I know that's just my brain telling me sordid shit and I have to come to terms with that.

TL;DR: are there any bartenders on here? Can you tell me what your jobs are like and what I can expect if I land one?