>>921320The thing is I don't have "faggot thoughts" as you put it. I don't fantasize about having sex or relationship with dudes. It's just this nagging fear of "shit what if I am gay?" that I can't shake.
I love to look at pictures of beautiful women and I imagine what their shitboxes smell like lol. Those kind of things don't trouble me and I enjoy it.
However just the thought of having sex with another dude just makes me really uncomfortable.
>>921347>Why don't you like women? Is there something that makes you disinterested in them?What is disinteresting about them is that they usually don't want all that much to do with me. Maybe I smell bad, I don't know.
They just seem so unobtainable to me. Why should I bother when they don't like me anyway.
But other than that I have a general hard time getting to know people, that's why I don't rarely make new friends. Take this for example: Only after my third year of going to this job I was comfortable enough to even talk to my co-workers in our group chat. Before that I kept my safe distance.
So you can imagine how hard it is to get to know a woman.
The last girl I had a crush on I only talked to her when I was piss drunk for a few months before I got comfortable talking to her sober.
The thing I don't find men really all that interesting, it's just easier to interact with them to talk with them. Why can I not do the same with women? Conclusion: I must be gay because I can't talk to girls.
