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I watched the IDOLM@STER around March-April 2013, by then (well I still am) I was going through a really harsh depression. I had been kicked from high school in 2010 and spent the following 2 years as NEET, rotting myself in my room. By 2013 I was 17 I enrolled myself in a night school for adults, in order to finish high-school.
It was a really cold month, with lots of cloudy days and rain. I started watching the show, at a slow pace, maybe 4 episodes a week or so. I didn't do much else in the day, other than classes at 7 PM, but I couldn't bring myself to watch more episodes. The first thing I noticed about her, was her composure. She always had the right attitude, and the right thing to say. Her presence captivated me, her elegance, the way she talked, and related to the other characters. Somehow she seemed perfect, but real, close, like I knew her before watching the show. By the time I finished the show, I was completely obsessed with her. I spent entire afternoons thinking about her, the things she did, how she talked, remembering phrases and dialogues from the show in my head. By my 18th birthday in June, I had realized I was in fact in love with her.
I read about the waifu thing, and how some people developed special bonds with fictional characters. I had found my waifu, a character I could say I'm in love with. After a while I realized what really happened, Takane reflected an idealized, female version of myself, and image of how I would like to truly be, but I am incapable, first for the unavoidable fact that I am male, and second for the mental issues that have plagued me for most of my life (Chronic depression, ADHD, Bipolar disorder, extreme egoism and selfishness), which impedes me to even come close to a successful life, far from the perfection and giftedness of Takane. I'm condemned to be an eternal admirator of perfect image of myself, at least to the day I finally commit suicide and leave this world.
