doing a thread because I dont want to involve any of who I know that is close to me
basically I ruined my life in the span of 3 years
after finishing middle/elemenatary school (16yo) I was already smoking too much weed as for my age, and friend introduced me to hard drugs
months of rc, meth and amph, sometimes daily for the whole week
I quit after a year but, after that I wasn't myself anymore
lazy as fuck, I find no meaning in anything anymore, the only thing that is somehow enjoyable to me is solitude, me myself and I no one else
constant lies that stacked up and now im in big mess
will prolly be kicked out of school, also I dropped work, have fucking credit to pay (muh holidays, im a fucking retard)
I have zero perception in the future, I just dont think till its over and either a miracle happens (which is not the case for now) or its over over
the reason why im posting this is to have genuine conversation since I started to see my fault in all of this (I literally for all those years didnt even look in the mirror, didnt saw any my wrongdoings)
also the reason why im posting it instead of talking with people is I don't want to dissapoint them or scare them away
anons, I need a talk..