I like the idea of anonymous message board where I can just vent and bitch about my life and the most that’ll happen is I’ll be called a faggot.

My wife had a miscarriage, I got laid off, and I find myself wanting to run away from it all.

I hate this rat race, I hate being a wage slave, I hate not being able to get pregnant. I hate failing at this game called society and life.

Some people say I need to be grateful, that I’m looking at it wrong. That I should be thankful I have a woman that stays by my side and that it’s a good thing she was even able to conceive and it’ll happen next time. That another job will come along. That I gotta stay strong and power through the tough times.

It’s hard, I’ve been unhappy for years now and I just want to run away from it all. Go move to a desert or mountain town, get a job out there and lead a simple life.

But, this is selfish. This is selfish thinking. To want to run away to an isolated place and lock myself inside and play vidya and avoid life. That’s selfish. To want to run away from my wife cause we’re dealing with some real shit and I can’t hang - that’s selfish. And this also won’t get me any steps closer to getting pregnant.