I think my worst fear is reincarnation. The idea that I wasnt ambitious when my life was good as an attractive white person would be a real punch to the gut if I was reborn as a fucking nigger in zimbabwe or some kind of 130 year old bottom feeder fish.

It is really weird thought at the idea that we all just have 1 life. 1 experience on this earth and then we fade into oblivion for an eternity. To think that my soul skipped over abrahamic times, medieval times, renassaince etc just to place me in these modern times for my 1 experience at life until I go to oblivion. No feeling of having to wait those tens of thousands of years of mankind. Just time traveled through the dawn of man to spawn here and now. It makes me wonder if it will be possible to spawn again perhaps 1 million years as an alien of some sort because of how gigantic the universe is.

What determines our 1 conscious experience? Are we just all one big ball of energy that has 1 soul distributed into a being after the egg has formed in the womb? Souls constantly swapping back and forth from the ball of energy into living being and then back again when we die?
Redpill me on death.