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>be me
>be 18
>have alcoholic parents
>they fight everyday, mainly because we are deep in loans.
>dad is in about 2k euros while making 500 euros a month
>mom makes about 300 euros a month (this includes the loan companies taking away their %)
>we have to repay the loan
>get a summer job to get some money for myself
>maybe to get a car or atleast driver license
>Parents have been alcoholics for about 10 years
>had depression for aobut 6 years and only found out that feeling this ways int okay when i went to high school and went to the therapist at school
>she was so helpful
>helped me fix my depression and my own mental health step by step
>come in one afternoon
>"anon i'm sorry to say this but next year i wont be working here, i'm moving. There will be a therapist that will replace me. She's my student"
>didnt hear anythign after "i'm moving"
>had this kind of black out
>my depression doubled
>the only person that helped me so much and worked hard for me is disappearing infront of me
>depression doubles
>parents? they dont care. I have had numerous talks about what they are doing to my mental health while acting like that
>and i mean fighting, screaming, breaking stuff
>fights usually end when i interrupt or someone breaks a bone or spills quite a bit of blood.
>both parents tried killing themself about 4-5 times (talked about his)
>tfw when i'm becoming more suicidal
>i fucked up hard in work today, made almost close to 0 money
>cant focus, my mind is in a storm, cant quite think in full sequences.
>had a mental breakdown at work for being this much of a fuck up
>boss game me this job to make quite a bit of money
>i fuck it up in the first week i'm working there
>i'm scared
>weekend are non-existent to me
>parents fight 24h a day during a weekend. cant rest at all
>almost failed school this year of not being able to rest during the weekends. only a handful people now of this
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>be 18
>have alcoholic parents
>they fight everyday, mainly because we are deep in loans.
>dad is in about 2k euros while making 500 euros a month
>mom makes about 300 euros a month (this includes the loan companies taking away their %)
>we have to repay the loan
>get a summer job to get some money for myself
>maybe to get a car or atleast driver license
>Parents have been alcoholics for about 10 years
>had depression for aobut 6 years and only found out that feeling this ways int okay when i went to high school and went to the therapist at school
>she was so helpful
>helped me fix my depression and my own mental health step by step
>come in one afternoon
>"anon i'm sorry to say this but next year i wont be working here, i'm moving. There will be a therapist that will replace me. She's my student"
>didnt hear anythign after "i'm moving"
>had this kind of black out
>my depression doubled
>the only person that helped me so much and worked hard for me is disappearing infront of me
>depression doubles
>parents? they dont care. I have had numerous talks about what they are doing to my mental health while acting like that
>and i mean fighting, screaming, breaking stuff
>fights usually end when i interrupt or someone breaks a bone or spills quite a bit of blood.
>both parents tried killing themself about 4-5 times (talked about his)
>tfw when i'm becoming more suicidal
>i fucked up hard in work today, made almost close to 0 money
>cant focus, my mind is in a storm, cant quite think in full sequences.
>had a mental breakdown at work for being this much of a fuck up
>boss game me this job to make quite a bit of money
>i fuck it up in the first week i'm working there
>i'm scared
>weekend are non-existent to me
>parents fight 24h a day during a weekend. cant rest at all
>almost failed school this year of not being able to rest during the weekends. only a handful people now of this
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