Something about me seems to be fundamentally different to everyone else. All throughout high-school and six years since, I have had no friends whatsoever. I've never tried to make any. It'svnot that I've had trouble understanding how to talk to people or understand social queues, I'm not autistic, I just don't care to hear their small talk or want to buddy up with them. At the same time though, I do have rare moments where I see people having a genuine conversation and understand how much easier it would be if I wasn't lone-wolfing my way through life, because sometimes it's helpful to hear from other people going through their own experiences. I also recognize that without the ability to network I'll be totally fucked for life, which concerns me.

I honestly think most people would have killed themselves already if they were in my shoes, but I deal with it easily enough. So what's wrong with me? Why have I always been an outsider?