The problem is that you have to keep choosing between one evil or another, and no matter what you choose, they slice a little bit more off of you, until there's nothing left. At the age of 25 most people are finished. A whole god-damned nation of assholes driving automobiles, eating, having babies, voting for the presidential candidates who reminded them most of themselves, WHATEVER; doing EVERYTHING in the worst way possible. As for me I have no interests. I have no interest in anything.

So what's the point? Adopt a religion? I know it wouldn't be true; a comfortable lie at best. Have kids? They'll inevitably be absorbed into the consumer/producer globohomo communo-capitalist slave system. Go innawoods and become a hermit? I can't cope with loneliness, no one can, humans are a social species, that's why solitary confinement is one of the worst punishments most prisoners can get.

I have no idea how I'm going to escape. At least the others seem to have some taste for life. They seem to understand something that I don't. Maybe I was lacking. It's possible. I often feel inferior. I just want to get away from these people and their comfortable lies and their illusions. But there's no place left on this god-forsaken planet to go.