>>9720920I'm asking again, why don't you find groups with other addicts to discuss about it? it might sound cringe but discussion about pretty much everything can help a lot and can change your mind on some things in a better way
and what I mean of a group with other addicts is those groups doctors organize for detoxification
and have in mind if you pass out some of your people even if they're few, it's going to affect their lives forever that's for sure
and think about the antidepressants I mentioned, I started taking seroxat on my own for 3 weeks because I am an idiot and it was pretty bad and then I saw a psychiatrist and she told me to get escitalopram, it might be not that nice the first weeks but now I'm really seeing myself being more active than before and it might be because of this medication
anyways good luck with your final withdrawal whenever you choose to do it