>>980069He's a full timer fisherman, works 14 hours a day. He's a really nice guy but he's a lot like me, just doesn't want to fuck with people. He's a numbers guy and he loves to fish, people annoy him a lot. He's super cool right now for doing everything he has but I get frustrated sometimes when I explain what's going on with my family and he says stuff like 'I know what you're saying but you need to just move past it.'
I haven't explained that 95% of my emotions are violent and vengeful, knowing that what they did to me, they will never be in trouble and that unless I do something about it, nothing will happen to them. I think he offered to take care of my short term because he knew when they let me out of the hospital I would burn their houses down and possibly hurt or kill them.
I think I'll be okay if I can avoid them, when I see them though, my body goes numb and I feel with adrenaline. I'm not a violent person, I'm what happens when you beat and scream at a human for 20+ years. It's like hiccuping or coughing, I don't choose to feel crazy, but rest assure when they show up and try to act nice, my body is full nitro turbo killer 9000 mode.
How do you explain this to someone? I have a therapist but when my mom figured out where they were, she called and 'helped them' by basically getting a random secretary on the phone and telling them like 300 instances of why I'm autistic and don't need therapy. So I'm looking for a new one right now.
