>>9820882yeah
i'd been doing so well too. i stopped measuring teetotalling in days but rather times i considered drinking and resisted. got up to 3, the 4th time i couldn't say no.
or i suppose i could have but that's the mentality. its not choosing not to drink at any given time, rather its whether you'll be in the state of mind to even say no to it at all times. sometimes when you really examine it the bads don't outweigh the goods to you in a given moment and bam, you're got.
i had been doing so much better with it though but goddamn it starting over is shit
