>>9856631the energy I'm getting from this post is of a guy who has been spurned, or who has mentally spurned himself, who craves sex and projects that onto the idol of his derision
Is this productive? Nope. OP will become less and less happy, descending further into inceldom.
Flipbro, it's not too late to change
Go to church, eat healthily, workout, and focus on doing your job or studies well. All will fall into place
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