>>993850I totally get you. I thought there weren't many of us.
Some nights, I'm just laying in bed trying to sleep, and all of sudden I grasp that idea. I take the concept of being eternally gone, forever, and it makes me panic. I need to do something else to clear my mind right away.
I know you won't go to heaven, hell, afterlife. You won't reborn. You'll die, and you won't be able to experience nothing after that, you won't see other continuing with their life's and shit like that.
This feeling came to me when I was like 7, and never left me.
I wish I was more stupid. I wish I believed in God, in afterlife, in rebirth. My mind would be much quiet. I would live life without worrying about death and that it will happen no matter what.
>you can't control it, why do you worry about it? I know fucker, I know. I just can't deal with it. I WILL DIE. I wish I was never born. I will have this feeling with me all my life, and no matter what I do, or how happy I am, I will always remember it, because it's the only universal truth.
I'll try to live life at the fullest, accomplish all my goals and love the people around me.
But I know for sure I won't be waiting for death. I'll voluntarily OD, or shoot myself or something if I don go crazy before that.
I'm broken inside and nothing can fix it. There's no more ligth in my life. Or if there is, it's slowly fading and I can't do nothing about it but watch.
I hope we all find peace of mind.
