>>9960126then, you guilt tripped and pitied yourself after you coomed which only reinforces the habit and makes the addiction worse. The shame is an inevitable consequence of cooming, and with the chemically induced shame that must follow the chemically induced high of fapping, lust, porn, and orgasm, comes all of the thoughts of hopelessness, determinism, guilt tripping and pity partying.
The feeling of shame is determined, so you mistakenly believe the thoughts are determined as well, but most of all you mistakenly believe that your behaviour and choice is determined by something other then you, because the pleasure, high and sensations of fapping, lust, porn, and orgasm are all determined along with the crash that follows orgasm.
In reality, your choice to fap and or consume porn is determined by nothing other then your conscious will and eagerness to do so, and the weakness of will to not do so, or the lack of will to abstain entirely.
Why beat yourself up when you did exactly what you wanted to do? you accomplished exactly what you wanted, because you're pathetic, creepy, disgusting, slimy, perverted, weird and weak. Why do you feel shame about it? Thats what you are because thats what you chose to be, thats what you wanted to be. Why do you hide and run from that reality and bury it, because it hurts? Poor baby. If it hurts to be a such a worthless loser then don't chose to be one.
If you had any respect or love for yourself then you wouldn't choose to be one. You choose whether or not you have respect or love for yourself. If you don't nobody will respect you or love you either. You don't think about that reality when you chose to consume porn, or you do but you avoid it and/or choose to consume it anyway? Too bad. Choose not to do that.
