>>2364744Dear diary,
I actually see your point and it makes sense, but I don't see how the retarded actions of others has anything to do with me. Believe me, I hate that type of shit too. In fact there's a lot I deeply hate about all sides of the MMD fandom. I only got into 3D modeling cause I got tired of not seeing MMD models of fav chars and wanted lewd/cute/cool vids of them, so I took it upon myself to try making it happen. Often I never saw myself as part of any various MMD cliques that exist, and never wanted to be... mostly because what I saw always pissed me the fuck off or annoyed me so I always kept to myself for years. Posting here has mostly been the first time I've attempted to directly interact with MMDers at all since the creation of my model. Only thing I gave a shit about was myself and making the models I wanted (and for fans of said content), but eventually I figured I had to "get along" sooner or later so I chose here rather than DA, lol... plus a desire to add something worthwhile in the longrun, perhaps.
I'm sorry I don't always have shit to show when I post, I wish to contribute what little I can. In fact, its kinda been fucking with me mentally for a few months now. I've spent so much time making my model but so little time actually using it and having fun. I'm still new to all this, and as a result I'm slow as fuck with making progress since I've never done such stuff before like animating, editing models, creating models from scratch, etc. I'm also not the youngest of people around here, so that fucks with me too regarding freetime. I'm amazed I've even gotten this far, but it feels bittersweet... perhaps a feeling of being too late.
Also earlier today I saw a chipmunk outside and watched him eat nuts, then I made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for lunch! Also I masturbated 3 times today! Thank you for reading and tune in tomorrow for more of my life updates!