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I feel like i've missed the proverbial bus on dating in my "youth"
was mostly ignored back in highschool since i attented only the bare minimum attendance quota to be eligible for the exams and nothing else since the travel to the college was cumbersome
(tail end of highschool is handled by seperate 'colleges" the indian education system is wierd)
what little aspirations of connection i had for art college got strangled by covid lockdowns despite me having invested time and effort to get fit and groom my appearence
the few women in the second year in my batch were either mentally unstable walking red-flags or incredibly dispassionate slobs who didn't even like animation
them dragging their feet throughout the semister and being defeatist retards really made me resent them
and now that i've begun internship i've gotten a pretty decent rapport with the one lone female intern besides me and talking to her on a daily basis has really made apparent just how far off i've grown from "normie culture" i can't for the life of me get an actual conversaion going about anything besides animation with her even thn trying to convey basic ideas feels like a chore
I'd originally thought i'd set myself up for failure by trying to "date women beyond my league" so i've tried woooing the "mid" "average" women in my viscinity and getting to know them
and honestly the more i got to knowing them as people the less i respected them
idk if i'm a wierdo virgin moralist for wanting my "first one" to be special
I had a very romanticized delusion about what my dating life would be like and honestly i've grown very disillusioned with the very notion
not like what i do or my interests are something i can easily impress people with nor am i adept at using social media to attract potential dates
it isn't going as i imagined it'd go
my daily routine goes home->gym->office->home rinse repeat
i've no chanc of ever organically developing a budding romance with a girl
