>>2678061It's the inner turmoil of men who were forced to see the light and can't now unsee it and pretend it was never there. It haunts them every time they swing from the rope to get across the river over which the hundred year old bridge crumbled and they never managed to repair, they feel it with every mud pie they eat, with every street shit they take, every time they must hold a fork or can't gay rape each other as "discipline".