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I'm glad this thread exists and that there are others here like me. I'm 28 years old, and have never been in a serious relationship. I fell in love with a couple girls almost back to back during my teen years, but I was pretty cringe back then and exhausted myself on love at an early age on girls who wanted nothing to do with me. Even though that was a long time ago, it set up my mindset that feeling love or infatuation was something bad and that I should be ashamed of. I've bettered myself significantly in my adult years as most people do, but that mindset remains, and my luck with love and romance has not improved much. These days it's more bad luck and not finding anyone I actually want to be with, but every time I've gotten close and things look suspiciously good, I've sabotaged it one way or another. Several years ago, I started going /out/ regularly, and that has somehow filled that void. I find myself pushing myself harder and doing more dangerous things just so I can get that taste of life that many others get with a romantic partner. I'm preparing to hike the AT as soon as I can, and I may do all the other thru hikes in America after that. I'm preparing for the solitary life of a drifter, and I feel like not only is it too late for me to try romantic love, but I'm preparing for a life without it, just like the rest of my life up to this point has been without it. Some of us anons are just meant to live and die alone.
