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>fuck, well i guess ill leave at the next bail point which is like 10km away because clearly this isnt sustainable.
>but i cant in this state. so i down another 5mg
>does basically fuckall but bring be back to how i feel sober and not deathly tired
>at this point i start hearing voices and seeing figures move around in the corners of my vision
>weird fucking thoughts about weird fucking shit that i cant get out of my head, felt like some old dude behind me was purposefully remaining at the exact speed to tail me and then sneak up and attack
>thankfully i am not that far fucked and realize that im imagining it - i need to focus, get this done, and not take any more
>force myself to speed through the track because next crash ill be severely gimped
>also because last bump i spent like 30 minutes fucking around on my phone taking photos and totally lost track of time
>maybe 4km left
>completely totally fucking spent after only a bit more than an hour
>have to limp at a snails pace to get to the train station. beginning to notice how much my feet hurt. start shivering even though it isnt cold
>finally arrive, looking like a limping flu-ridden chemo patient
>take boots off at home and seeing the damage sober makes all the pain hit at once and im in agony
>take a bath and all the cuts and sores are agonizing
I knew I could've just taken more amphetamine to power through it, but I also knew that it would make the crashes far worse and my delusions (towards the end) far worse so I avoided it. My takeaways:
>it is fucking retarded to use this stuff for a whole hike or really even at all
>might be some limited application in packing a bit for a first aid kit for emergency use
>i should have packed some proper fucking food
>i made the right choice to overprepare water availability, running out of water could have legitimately been the killer
>i am a fucking retard but at least i learnt about my physical breaking point
ended up going a total of like 50km with 2km elevation lol
