>>878605I know that feel bro. My dad lived away in New Zealand after my parents separated following the death of my brother. My mum always used to tell me stories about him in the military, then salvage and paua diving, sailing, hiking and bringing beat-up vehicles back to life. I never really got the chance to know him, I joined the ADF out of school and was fairly consumed in it all when I found out he only had a few weeks left due to an aggressive cancer.
All I really have left are the stories of Homeric proportions of him. Massive sharks, stuck on a mountain in a snowstorm, living on a boat as a family for 2 years before I was born. It initially didn't hit me as hard as you would have thought but my life was a slow crash and burn after that point. 2.5 years later and I'm still picking up the pieces.
Have my NZ passport and citizenship application in the works now, really keen to explore the fiordland.
Pic is from Tuesdays hike in Nightcap NP.