>>2567482>>2567485>>2567486Sorry for the poor english and sorry I can't stay up late to reply to further comments, but if your friends and loved ones are stressing that you "need to go outside" I'm getting strong shut-in vibes from you. Depression is a kick in the dick and the balls that only you can fix in the end and you really need to do just do it. It seems impossible until that one day that someone invites you somewhere and you agree to get taken outside your comfort zone. I don't know you but I know the way you feel all to well. Stare at the muddy slope and get creative with how to climb it and quit caring how messy you get. Enjoy drinking whiskey by the campfire with strangers. Do things that test what you think you can do and then do it again. Test that last thing you did and make a new record.
If you're as sad and depressed as I was you'll muster all your energy and say "yes, I will do this dangerous activity that has a chance of injury or death with friends" and just conqueror it