>>1216314You could call it autistic with a special interest in gardening, Catholicism, and nazism. Anyways, such feelings develop after experiencing the parental, symbiotic bonds between you and your plant. As you sire more seedlings, your goals will extend beyond having a "flower in a pot". Remember the serfs, for their blood still runs through you (unless you're a sub Saharan African). Start small, train yourself, and have fun growing. Any plant in particular you want to have around?