>>1071008Initiating it is the hard part if your brain shuts down the second you stop getting external stimulus. Of course if someone else is with me I can get back to normal but all alone you just shut down the second you take a break and then the hours just float by when you're dazed.
It's a self-made disease from too many years of constant and chronic external stimulus. I've essentially made myself so extrovert (as in get energized from stimulus rather than drained) that I've made a catch 22: To get stimulus I need to be stimulated, to be stimulated I need to get stimulus.
