Dear /out gentlemans!
I’d like to thank you everything!
TL;DR: you guys saved my life.
Let me explain: i worked pretty hard in the last some years, i took every steps on the ladder to the “technical lead engineer” position. It was not nice, i worked 10 hozrs a day, and i had 30-40 hours work without sleep in almost every two weeks.
My alcohol consume had peaks at this times, smoked cigarets like a crazy. To make it yet better i had a long depressive session, maybe 16 yers or so. I used to visit psychiater and psychology, got meds and bullshit, which i doesnt even understood. I lost my friends because i had no time for them, and because i was a dick because the stress.
It went on and on. I tought about being a hero like every hours. I even planned how i will do it. My family (only parents) is fucked up, and i felt me complete outsider, so no chains.
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