I'm just fucking mad at growing up as a suburbanite shitter and I'll never know what it means to be a good 'ol boy. None of my friends or family want to go out to the fucking woods and at best I can take a trip with them to a public park but only if the weather is any good.

I wish I fucking grew up with hunting, fishing, and shooting critters from my back porch. I wish I spent my summers getting drunk with my buddies and riding ATVs or snowmobiles. I wish I had an old grandma who cooked me full course dinners and made pickles and jams out of shit we or our neighbors grew. I wish I got into fights in my school years just for the sake of figuring out who is the toughest. I even wish I at least had some sort of fucking accent instead of just speaking standardized American English. And now don't you tell me I'm romanticizing this shit, I used to talk with my military buddies and I'm just quoting their fantastic childhoods.

Now I have to work my typical 9 to 5 and if I'm lucky I get to go hiking once a quarter, or fishing every other week. I can barely tend to my garden plot because my family needs me to deal with their typical suburban problems. I'm just mad. Like fuck it, I just want to one day drive away from it all but I can't do that to them and besides I wouldn't know where to get work. Whatever, just let this thread die, I just needed to get this out.