>>1623851Panic disorder is a stress disorder.
It's like a very (i do mean very) mild form of PTSD being that I don't get the 1000 yard stare and like freak out in the middle of public places cause of a flash back.
I just get a lot of adrenaline and start hyperventilating at the shittiest times possible.
Also small things tire me out quickly.
Like driving to the store to pick up milk is nothing for normal people but for me it can be very demanding and I'll only notice this like the next day cause I wake up feeling like I had a workout or I can deal with set backs and shitty people less well.
Cut me off on a good day I dgaf, cut me off on a bad day and i'm trying to figure out how to get you out of the car and smack you all the while trying to calm down and forget about it.
I'm doing better now but I've had my excessively aggressive moments.
Weirdest thing about it though is that when I was in a dangerous situation I was hyper like I am during an attack but I was thinking sort of logically.
Meanwhile everybody around me was freaking the fuck out.
I was just looking for exits and thinking about how to get everybody in a safe place.
I also considered the scramble for the door by people in a panicked state.
Now imagine doing all that but naturally everywhere you go.
Analyzing people, environments, what I can use as a weapon etc.
It sucks and I've learned to stop doing it as much but when I do do it I know I need to take it easy or workout etc.
