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be me
> have a really good job and income
> work my ass off, management position after only 3 years
> no motivation for anything
> only find joy in work, unless the days are slow
> dont believe in my dreams anymore and halfass everything i do for them - sorta sacrificed them for caring for my family when shit was still bad.
> on days off have no motivation to do anything
> browse the internet without joy
> no joy in movies get instantly bored
> no joy in books or Videogames get instantly bored
> play videogames with best friend but get bored after 2 hours
> only place i feel somewhat good is out in the mountains
> do borderline suicidal stuff in the wild
> i feel beyond restless, have issues sleeping
> no appetite at all.
> sudden burst of inspiration, start to panic because i want to do so many things in life
HOW THE FUCK DO I END THIS, I dont want to anymore, I cant do this any longer
> have a really good job and income
> work my ass off, management position after only 3 years
> no motivation for anything
> only find joy in work, unless the days are slow
> dont believe in my dreams anymore and halfass everything i do for them - sorta sacrificed them for caring for my family when shit was still bad.
> on days off have no motivation to do anything
> browse the internet without joy
> no joy in movies get instantly bored
> no joy in books or Videogames get instantly bored
> play videogames with best friend but get bored after 2 hours
> only place i feel somewhat good is out in the mountains
> do borderline suicidal stuff in the wild
> i feel beyond restless, have issues sleeping
> no appetite at all.
> sudden burst of inspiration, start to panic because i want to do so many things in life
HOW THE FUCK DO I END THIS, I dont want to anymore, I cant do this any longer
