Out by myself for the first time in my life. I'm at a waterfall in the mountains, cooked some speck and sausages and burst some tomatoes and I'm just having a chill time. However I learned that so terribly under-equipped. I need a good axe first and foremost, for chopping serious wood otherwise I burn through fiddles too easily. A folding chair. A better backpack obviously. Better mountaineering boots. A decent tent with blankets. A better flashlight because this one is too weak, although it has a rechargeable battery with dinam (whatever you call the perpetual motion recharging thing). Basically better everything.

But the biggest thing? I need to stop having these paranoid thoughts. Basically every small sound is some turbo predator animal out to get my ass. Every shadow shape in the woods surrounding me is a bigfoot out to rape my ass. I'm not even in America.
Everything is out to get me. I wanted to close all devices this night, but I pussied out and took my phone out to use the flashlight. Because of no axe I couldn't chop wood and I burned through all my fiddles. It's pretty dark right now.

How do I deal with the paranoia next time I go /out/ and what else would I need to be better equipped? I feel like if I had all the equipment I need and a bigger fire, I wouldn't be so afraid of the woods.

Thanks.