>>1848632Sometimes I have similiar feelings about being /out/, but I'm trying to find new /out/ activities, that I enjoy.
I tried few times to go out with my friends on trail, but I didn't found it enjoyable at all, since they were more concerned about distance traveled, that nature around them, which really bothered me.
Then I tried walking alone, it was kind of okay, but not really my thing (same feels as you). During that I found out that I like observing the nature around myself (birds, trees, plants, bees, whatever, or landscape with binos) more that rushing myself from point A to point B.
Also I found schroom picking enjoyable too (picking, cleaning, cooking).
Next thing is, that I was dissapointed with my frequency of going out, however it got better.
So my advice would be to continue going /out/, try new activities but at same time be aware that it might not work out as you wish. Do not rush, take small steps, try to found buddies who enjoy /out/ same way you do (I didn't lol, yet).
/Out/ is (for me) not just about walking. Cook, larp, construct or just sit dow on your ass and sip beer while watching bears fucking, birds flying and sun shining.
Last note.
If you have people around yourself who are mocking you, because they don't see your way of being /out/ as good as theirs, ignore them or get rid of them (in my case, most of these people were going /out/ since young age, with their parents. I really dont't understand why they were like this, I was expecting oppsosite behavior).
Do what you like in way you like and enjoy the most and don't leave trash around.
