>>2428039I couldn't comprehend it at the time, and I was pretty pissed until a year into it..
I still hold that the second program, a whole different story, was misguided and a mistake.
I don't fault them for it at all. My siblings were high achieving and had direction out of high school. I was super depressed and they knew I was dealing with suicidal ideation.
Being out there changed my life, lost weight, and later found a love for exercise, which has kept me sane in the years since.
It hasn't been easy, and I haven't really found what they wanted me to do out there.
Finished a year of college, but I ended up at this country club liberal arts school, another mistake, so I quit and started working.
Still live with them, 25 now, but I have a full time job and they don't fear for my mental health, largely because I just know to shut up about it now and can cope better.
