>>2467534>What would you recommend?Honest advice:
How serious are we talking? Previous suicide attempts? Plans to do something fucked/irreversibly fuck up your life? Delusions?
What did you try before? Therapy? Medication? Opening up to someone?
Depending on what you answer to those two questions the answers will change. If you haven't tried anything and haven't attempted suicide/planned to go postal then you should start there. Therapy, possibly medication, get an outlet to talk to someone, preferably a professional.
If you are planning on/already tried suicide or "doing dumb shit", then it may be so acute you may need to be institutionalized.
Going innawoods is a good idea for general mental health, planning to live innawoods is probably not. Chances are, especially since you are asking about gear, you aren't experienced with outdoor survival, so you probably have a unrealistic expectation/some wrong ideas. It is not easy, especially not now, since we are entering winter. You can do some dayhikes, maybe stay innawoods overnight, something along those lines. Ease into it, look if you can even find enough food from foraging/hunting, because I somehow doubt it without training. Just know it is not that easy and winter is the hardest season to survive in.
So my best advice is get professional help - it's unlikely that living innawoods is the solution you need right now, even if it may help to go /out/ regardless. You didn't give enough info to determine if "get help" means "talk to someone", "go to a therapist" "go to a psychiatrist" or "get institutionalized"
If you want to disregard my advice, pack the usualy stuff, first aid kit, tools (knives and shit) a small sewing kit, duct tape, a water filter, some food (dried or canned, keep it light and high calories), shelter, clothes, string, sleep system, blankets, stuff to keep you warm. Also a phone, preferably a dumb phone with a long lasting battery, because you are unlikely to last outdoors without experience
