most women are naturally submissive, including myself, because clearly homosexuality is unnatural and wrong by nature. as a lesbian, i can pull, but i cant keep anyone because i cant escalate due to us usually both being too submissive. sure, theres a dominant woman here or there but theyre so few and far between, and we often end up sharing roles bc its rare i meet someone able to fulfil the dominant role that i need. ive tried really hard to be attracted to men, but im not. ive never been sexually abused or assaulted, so its not that. im more attracted to "stem" women than any other kind, women who are a mix of fem and masc, but once a woman is too masculine in appearance, im instantly turned off. i wish i could be normal, lesbian dating is evidently so difficult due to it being unnatural. i can even feel that its wrong. i feel ashamed and embarassed of my inability to be what most women need. everything points to me needing a man, but i feel absolutely nothing in terms of attraction, and never have. i even tried matching with men on dating apps to try it out, but i could barely even get the convo off the ground due to my lack of interest. will i always be unfulfilled? my ex is very dominant, strong, and 6"1, but i think she has some kind of unusual high testosterone thing going on, so shes an outlier. i just want to be okay.