>>2624876>going outside with a girl is racist and/or somehow involuntary celibacyLMFAO
I haven't shared my story yet. used to live the dream; tiny cottage with my goth gf in the middle of nowhere half way up a mountain. We would go out regularly. one problem: i had no job, no income, no car and she had BPD and emotional problems, so it was more like being trapped with an insane person. (this ruins the relationship). when she was normal i loved her, but when she'd get the slightest bit upset about something (which she did, very often, over inconsequentialities, outside or not) she was a nightmare.
So I left her for a while and moved back to the city. she is desperate for me to come back, i come back after about 6 months and she immediately breaks down crying and hugs me so tight, and promises things will be different from now on. i believe her. the next day we go for a hike and she gives me clear signs that she wants to fuck. i find a nice secluded dip, with moss and comfy undergrowth and we fuck right there on the mountainside. I remember thinking "i shouldn't be doing this" but i wanted to believe we could just have the good times.
Of course you already know the ending, nothing changed, years later i had to leave her again when it became apparent that she was never going to change. yeah, i thought i could fix her, i was wrong, but i only thought that because i once fixed myself. got over most of my problems like anxiety, depression. in my attempts to fix her she dragged me right back down because despite claiming to, she had no interest in fixing herself to begin with, she would rather just have arguments about total bullshit.
>inb4 blogpostdon't care, I'll post what i want.
tl;dr i fucked my ex on a mountainside once and regretted it.
