>>401136I find going /out/ alone to be like motivating oneself to exercise. You sit and dread the idea, "It'll be cold, I'm tired, I need to eat but my stomach hurts so I'll just sit here". But then, something happens, and before you know it you're on your way down the trail with a massive smile on your face, thinking "What the fuck was wrong with me? This is great!"
I do enjoy being /out/ alone, but I like going where I KNOW it'll be just me. When I meet people I feel like I'm trying to befriend them way too much, so I ignore them and then feel rude etc etc, if I commit to a solo journey goddommit I want a solo journey.
The thing that hits me right in the feels though is when something epic happens (An eagle screams over your head, a branch nearly falls on you, surfing a rock down a talus field towards a cliff and bailing at the last moment). You touch all your outside parts to make sure they're all still attached, think "damn that was crazy" and EVERYTIME I start to utter the words "did you see that?" before realizing I'm totally alone. Hits me right in the feels.
